It's a new month. I haven't written in this space for a while but felt compelled to today. It's June and that's just crazy talk right there. June has a lot of my mom in it. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my mom but I have my "months" I like to say, where she's more prominent for me than other months. June 11th would have been my parents' 41st wedding anniversary, and you know what? just because she's gone, it doesn't suddenly stop the date they got married. It doesn't ruin anything. That will forever be their anniversary and a special day with or without her. I can't imagine the pain my dad feels each year on that day, I am sure it's not easy at all. But he can also reflect back on that day and think of the amazing memories they shared together. June 11th also marks 16 months since she left us. It's still so surreal yet very real. I had a very real and vivid dream about my mom last night. She had bough
" I miss Nanny." That's what my daughter said a few minutes ago when we were talking about my mom and her nana. She just knows she's in heaven and in our hearts, always. My daughter has even said to me that she wishes nanny was alive. Me too kid. It sucks so bad. I miss my mom so much, it stings. A few saviors for me have been: being busy with our new home, being busy with my young daughter, being busy with work and the logistics that need to happen when it comes to driving my kid to school, my husband picking her up or me, and right now, my dad watching her on Fridays, basically 9-5pm. It's a long day for everyone. The busy Christmas season just ended ( thank God) and it's a new year. I have to keep moving forward because it's my only savior. Other more recent saviors: my best friends wedding stuff , ( less then four months to go)!! keeping up with exercise and trying to stay as healthy as I can, planning my daughter's 5th birthday pa